没有半点值得等待，
没有半点值得期待，
在我生命中学我找不到所谓的值得。
左盼右盼，
盼一个什么，
却什么也没有。
总是遗忘现实面
也一直以为会一直这样，
但长越大，懂越多。
所谓值得究竟是什么？
生命所追求的又是什么？
追求快乐，追求梦想，追求理想？
对这是我，
又傻又天真，
傻到以为这样能过活，
天真以为可以当饭吃。
追求些什么，就舍弃些什么，
期待些什么，就等待些什么。
得到些什么，就失去些什么，
渴望些什么，就绝望些什么。
人生真的是个大道理，
没有没办法始终如一，
每年生活会不同，
每月思想会不同，
每天生活会不同。
变幻无常不只这片天空，
还有自己心中的天空，
它在变，忽高忽低，一直在变。
我不懂现在什么是值得，
我不知道现在该怎么做，
与这世界抗争是我，
但，能吗？
大骂脏话，我想，
但，能吗？
动力存在我这，曾经，
但它不允许，被当作不存在，总是。
还好，我的天空即将自由，
飞翔去新的天空，
去寻找更适合的栖息地,
飞翔在我值得也是值得我的天空。
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
如果我变成回忆 (English Edition )
Tired has sobered diligently according to the convention is also illuminating the convention to think that as soon as you good have feared felt relieved rested the palpitation not to be obedient in the dream stops
Listens to breathe the tide to flap beautifully likely more is letting me be disturbed I also to be able to treasure anything, if I their pulse difficult to grasp
If I turned the recollection to withdraw from this life
Leaves behind you to be stunned the sob
My ice-cold body could not hug you
Thought I let the deep love your huge crowd travels lonely
I will hate myself so cruel-heartedly
If I turn the recollection not to have finally that luckily
Not opportunity in vain hair
Limps pulls you to look that the sunset glow falls
The long time you will convalesce sadly one day
If some people may let him accompany your me not to blame you
When joyful will finish which quarter will be the last moment wants closely to hug you may know you are in my life most does not give up, if I turned the recollection most to fear that I too did not make every effort to succeed depend stubbornly in the air wrest away your each inch slit to implicate at heart still like my your pain withstanding to lose am like this unfair ask you to forget with every effort me
Listens to breathe the tide to flap beautifully likely more is letting me be disturbed I also to be able to treasure anything, if I their pulse difficult to grasp
If I turned the recollection to withdraw from this life
Leaves behind you to be stunned the sob
My ice-cold body could not hug you
Thought I let the deep love your huge crowd travels lonely
I will hate myself so cruel-heartedly
If I turn the recollection not to have finally that luckily
Not opportunity in vain hair
Limps pulls you to look that the sunset glow falls
The long time you will convalesce sadly one day
If some people may let him accompany your me not to blame you
When joyful will finish which quarter will be the last moment wants closely to hug you may know you are in my life most does not give up, if I turned the recollection most to fear that I too did not make every effort to succeed depend stubbornly in the air wrest away your each inch slit to implicate at heart still like my your pain withstanding to lose am like this unfair ask you to forget with every effort me
如果我变成回忆...
累了照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的
就停止了
听着呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握
如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你
我不怪你
快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的
最舍不得
如果我变成回忆最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气
霸占你心里每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力
把我忘记
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的
就停止了
听着呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握
如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你
我不怪你
快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的
最舍不得
如果我变成回忆最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气
霸占你心里每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力
把我忘记
..::.. I lOvE ThIs sOnG a lOt a lOt & A Lot...:::..
i feel that the lyrics in this song full of meanings...
entitled > 如果我变成回忆 ( If I turn to recollection )
i love the song x 1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000...
really love it !!!!
if the songs can becomes a man,
i sure i will love on him...
lolx ^v^
This song is sing by an Taiwan artist > Tank
entitled > 如果我变成回忆 ( If I turn to recollection )
i love the song x 1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000...
really love it !!!!
if the songs can becomes a man,
i sure i will love on him...
lolx ^v^
This song is sing by an Taiwan artist > Tank
..::.. Compunction ..::..
aaa, 2day XXX sit behind me...
n den he put every things in front of him, tat means besides me..
my bottle is there,
after then, i put my bottle back to the table,
he go and take his hp and put at the same table too...
omg, my careless bottle accidently make his hp fall lerh !
SAD ...
i'm so compunction of that...
n den he put every things in front of him, tat means besides me..
my bottle is there,
after then, i put my bottle back to the table,
he go and take his hp and put at the same table too...
omg, my careless bottle accidently make his hp fall lerh !
SAD ...
i'm so compunction of that...
Monday, June 22, 2009
HAIZ, no mood for camp~ing
feel want to cry,
i still remember yeow xin ask me that ur heart-secret will pouring out to whom?
i told her is kar yan,
say truly, i found that no one can displace kar yan,
she is really 100% that anyone can be trust on her,
therefore, my every matter will told her !
however, we not same class at this year lerh !
SAD !
therefore, i start to sign up a blogger to speak out what i was giving vent !
but , kar yan is now become very lonely at her class too!
i thought XXX will accompony her and sit with her too!
out of my mind, she is alone...
i say ady no one will be fully spirit,
HAIZ !!!
feel sad to her too!
T.T
go back to the topic of yeow xin..
she said actually all of her heart-secret is one withstand...
(thinking back) me too !
even my love's story doesn't tell anyone too!
that is because no one can make me fully-trusted !
that's why many people say i was mysterious and cool too,
lol, actually actually and actually,
i wasn't that kind of person...
HAIZ...
why people must have friend?
if everyone in this world behavior like that,
then i hope that i always living in a lonely world,
at least wont be hurt sommore !
and that's why i'm still thinking that should i giong for the camping?
SAD !!!
am i regret~ing ? SAD (II) !
( CONTINUED )
yup, at that sudden...
the only one i was stand between them !
i hate it...
i feel the world's was lonely..
as the bell ring ~ing,
i ask for cat that going back to our class..
she said " wait somemore, i want wait XXX come over here, i have sth to ask her"
OK, fine, i stay at there to wait her..
A few minutes is going off,
XXX haven appear, all the students was back to their class already,
i ask her one more time,
the answer she reply was the same!
At the same time, XXX said she will stay till 2pm for activities,
she keep asking and keep talking,
doesn't show me any respect,
and then, i heard what she say she want to make a call,
but she didn't told me at all,
finally, i go back class myself,
yerp, i very hate they all !!!
can i know the meaning for SPIRIT ?
at my class, yeow xin come n chat with me, ^^
i told her what was happening actually,
she said to me, actually she is facing the same problem too !
but i told her at least u gt XXX to accompony u,
but hw about me?
even my trustfully friend are nt same class with me,
SAD !!!
she said that actually XXX is nt her best friend,
she even say to me that actually the people who are approaching her is asking her schoolwork only,
HAIZ, she said to me that a BEST FRIEND is very very very hard to find !
yup, i believe it ~
i believe it ~ X100
damn miss my primary school friends,
at least they wont abandon me,
at least we can have fun at that time,
at least we have laugh, joy, and even more argue ^0^
but nw, people are growing up, mind will be mature too!
haiz, hate this life!
i living in a lonely world, right?
yeah T.T
yup, at that sudden...
the only one i was stand between them !
i hate it...
i feel the world's was lonely..
as the bell ring ~ing,
i ask for cat that going back to our class..
she said " wait somemore, i want wait XXX come over here, i have sth to ask her"
OK, fine, i stay at there to wait her..
A few minutes is going off,
XXX haven appear, all the students was back to their class already,
i ask her one more time,
the answer she reply was the same!
At the same time, XXX said she will stay till 2pm for activities,
she keep asking and keep talking,
doesn't show me any respect,
and then, i heard what she say she want to make a call,
but she didn't told me at all,
finally, i go back class myself,
yerp, i very hate they all !!!
can i know the meaning for SPIRIT ?
at my class, yeow xin come n chat with me, ^^
i told her what was happening actually,
she said to me, actually she is facing the same problem too !
but i told her at least u gt XXX to accompony u,
but hw about me?
even my trustfully friend are nt same class with me,
SAD !!!
she said that actually XXX is nt her best friend,
she even say to me that actually the people who are approaching her is asking her schoolwork only,
HAIZ, she said to me that a BEST FRIEND is very very very hard to find !
yup, i believe it ~
i believe it ~ X100
damn miss my primary school friends,
at least they wont abandon me,
at least we can have fun at that time,
at least we have laugh, joy, and even more argue ^0^
but nw, people are growing up, mind will be mature too!
haiz, hate this life!
i living in a lonely world, right?
yeah T.T
am i regret~ing ? SAD !
during the recess time,
the library was closed at the same time,
and we go ground floor to join HARI KOPERASI,
buying bread only lar...
i did nt buy it,
v keep tuking with each other...
at the sudden, i feel that i was abandoned by them...
i suddenly feel alone..
fine, i try to with them went back to their class...
ya, this is the point that i feel damn sad.
they all went into the classroom and i was the one who standing..
SAD..
TO BE CONTINUED ~~~
( urgent go for stationary shop )
the library was closed at the same time,
and we go ground floor to join HARI KOPERASI,
buying bread only lar...
i did nt buy it,
v keep tuking with each other...
at the sudden, i feel that i was abandoned by them...
i suddenly feel alone..
fine, i try to with them went back to their class...
ya, this is the point that i feel damn sad.
they all went into the classroom and i was the one who standing..
SAD..
TO BE CONTINUED ~~~
( urgent go for stationary shop )
:..:: Feeling disappointed:..::
yeah, my friend keep asking me to join the koko-camp
at last, i join it and i pay the money too !
i feel quite excited when thinking of it..
because a lot of people can make a lot of fun...
but... the gal > pearly cant join because of her mum
her mum nt allowed her to take part of this kind of things..
maybe her mum is all for her good or whatever...
i saw her blog, she scold her mum..
but, i think pearly's action was too exaggeration...
yeah, i knw it, if my mum nt allowed me to go,
mayb my feeling will same like her...
it is too sad that if i cant go because a lot of friend is joining but it is the only i didn't join in...
However, did ur behavior going too far?
because i think that she is always ur mum.., rite?
try to talk to her again la,
just try.... ... ... ...
gud luck ^^
at last, i join it and i pay the money too !
i feel quite excited when thinking of it..
because a lot of people can make a lot of fun...
but... the gal > pearly cant join because of her mum
her mum nt allowed her to take part of this kind of things..
maybe her mum is all for her good or whatever...
i saw her blog, she scold her mum..
but, i think pearly's action was too exaggeration...
yeah, i knw it, if my mum nt allowed me to go,
mayb my feeling will same like her...
it is too sad that if i cant go because a lot of friend is joining but it is the only i didn't join in...
However, did ur behavior going too far?
because i think that she is always ur mum.., rite?
try to talk to her again la,
just try.... ... ... ...
gud luck ^^
Thursday, June 11, 2009
...::.. Bothersome...::..
The day before yesterday, I did not know THEY quarrels for anything..
then, i go and ask her wat happen between THEM.
X say dun mention her name in front of Y,
ok , i submit her permission bcuz i knw she is in bad mood !
Three days ago, Y called me and ask me to send regards to X,
what i was really very wants to scold Y, she bored not to have mouth???
Considered as finished, I did not replied her message, because i was enrolling in supplementary lessons at that time...
At home, she is damn bothersome !
every 5 minutes , call me 1 time!
I was enjoying my dinner wif my family,
I told her i will help to send regards to X later...
But her reply was unexpectedly , " help me to ask her immediately! "
I with return to her saying that i was eating my meal,
Then, she said a few words make me very want to beat to death her! If she is in front of me at that time, I really very wants to give her a palm of the hand !
She said, " Feeds, I such trust you! Why aren't you willing to help me! Help me this time, each time is called you to help me, you not to be willing!”
What????!!!! she always called me to teach her to solve the Add.mathematics question, I spent entire one hour to explain with her! Not only this, everytime she called me, I will help her with every effort!
She said that I didn't helped her before!
I really very wants to close her telephone call immediately, she also desperately wants me to help her to ask her. . .
The question is I have not said do not help her! I will late a spot only will then give out her. . . Because I was eating meal at that time!!!
I really very wants to shout at you!!!
I will then help shortly afterward her to call to give her!!
She had to me said that when asking her, do not say that was she!
Young lady,
What do you want me to ask her?
Considers as finished, I ask and that's the end. .
I then ask X, “ why you didn;t answer her telephone?”
Human also knew that certainly has any thing! Moreover, she only quarrels with you, already knew that is you asks!
She calls her to telephone by herself. does not need to be troublesome others! (this my approval)
I then said to her that did not have the matter, she called you to give out her directly!
However, you shouted at me...
you scold me why i have to speaking out your name !
at that time, i really dont want bother you somemore,
i really want to decline your call immediately !
However, she keeps asking about X,
i said i was angry to you lerh !
she didn;t show any respect to me!
she is still keep asking about X,
I really hate you !!!!
My heart are broken, and my mood was really down !
I hate you !!!!!!!!!!!!!
tis call friendship?
then, i go and ask her wat happen between THEM.
X say dun mention her name in front of Y,
ok , i submit her permission bcuz i knw she is in bad mood !
Three days ago, Y called me and ask me to send regards to X,
what i was really very wants to scold Y, she bored not to have mouth???
Considered as finished, I did not replied her message, because i was enrolling in supplementary lessons at that time...
At home, she is damn bothersome !
every 5 minutes , call me 1 time!
I was enjoying my dinner wif my family,
I told her i will help to send regards to X later...
But her reply was unexpectedly , " help me to ask her immediately! "
I with return to her saying that i was eating my meal,
Then, she said a few words make me very want to beat to death her! If she is in front of me at that time, I really very wants to give her a palm of the hand !
She said, " Feeds, I such trust you! Why aren't you willing to help me! Help me this time, each time is called you to help me, you not to be willing!”
What????!!!! she always called me to teach her to solve the Add.mathematics question, I spent entire one hour to explain with her! Not only this, everytime she called me, I will help her with every effort!
She said that I didn't helped her before!
I really very wants to close her telephone call immediately, she also desperately wants me to help her to ask her. . .
The question is I have not said do not help her! I will late a spot only will then give out her. . . Because I was eating meal at that time!!!
I really very wants to shout at you!!!
I will then help shortly afterward her to call to give her!!
She had to me said that when asking her, do not say that was she!
Young lady,
What do you want me to ask her?
Considers as finished, I ask and that's the end. .
I then ask X, “ why you didn;t answer her telephone?”
Human also knew that certainly has any thing! Moreover, she only quarrels with you, already knew that is you asks!
She calls her to telephone by herself. does not need to be troublesome others! (this my approval)
I then said to her that did not have the matter, she called you to give out her directly!
However, you shouted at me...
you scold me why i have to speaking out your name !
at that time, i really dont want bother you somemore,
i really want to decline your call immediately !
However, she keeps asking about X,
i said i was angry to you lerh !
she didn;t show any respect to me!
she is still keep asking about X,
I really hate you !!!!
My heart are broken, and my mood was really down !
I hate you !!!!!!!!!!!!!
tis call friendship?
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