...::..4/10/10..::..

 4.10.10

I choose to become in reticent

doesn't mean I agreed with WHAT YOU HAD DONE.

I choose to preserve my silent,

doesn't mean Im happy with YOUR ACTION.

I don't wanna to use " disappointed " anymore.

YOU just drive me silly and once more silly.

Please do not FOOLED ME ! 

Please... 

I say Please ...

Please to be more self-criticism . 

♪ 你为什么说谎  ♪ 

   






  

..::..Tacitly Approve ..::..

30/9/2010

Got into MOODY and were in bad temperament.

Strenuous to Add Maths Paper 2 .

And feel senseless to Paper 1 . 

Feeling like just closed up the booklet and give up.

Start doing again from the last question. 

I were in HOLLOW during that time. 

I cant think thoroughly. 

Maybe I were being too tired. 

Feeling so stressful, and doesn't have a day to sleep well.

The alphabets even came to my dream. 

They told me what's coming out for BM.

And I really did action on it, go and check for the essay when woke up.

In conclusion, 

Of cause they were not OUT.

Please don't ask me why.

I just don't know what Im thinking now.

Whole day were in senseless and mind being useless and feel that Im hopeless.

And listening music to calm down myself. 

Is too STRESSFUL. 

I knew what is actually the " Music Treatment " . 

Started to believe that. 

" I Love Him " and " Can Or Not " by Ding Dang.

For Sure, " If I were A Boy " linking in my mind too..

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they are my antidote.

Cure everything bad from me. 

Conscious it since the last Camp that I attending. 

Were in moody after the night walk. 

and humph the song. 

The second time were arguing with SOMEONE.

and mind thinking the song again. 

And this is the third time. 

there's a fourth time coming soon, I think. 

Yea ... Im tacitly approved that ....

HE is the one who dare to ask me and even talk with me like nothing when I were in 

moodiness.

Happen twice... 

PS : Good luck for PMR students. ^^ Add oil and... 

IF YOU THINK YOU CAN, YOU CAN !

received this message when having my PMR last 2 years.

Trust yourself, dude. 

   

..::.. Nonetheless ..::..

Nonetheless...

They just always think that the PERSON 

who is being declined and ignored with others

is always be part of the one who getting MISTAKE.

And.. you know the truth now.

And you just acting like speechless.

Why you just can't speak out even a SORRY to me ?

YOU never support me what I wanna to do and what I had done.

And YOU just listen to the one who complaining.

YOU don't know the whole and complete storyline as well.

AND... 

Every time is my fault.

YOU just blaming it on me.

The one who making complaint is the perfect all the way.

And the one who is being talked by others is always getting the fault.

Im feeling disappointed thoroughly.

NOT on YOU.

but MYSELF.

I shouldn't talk with you. Right ?





   

..::.. Ms. W ..::..

Personally to Miss Wong Catherine. 

GET WELL SOON. 

We miss YOU a lot..

Never chat, saw and even meet her for 3 days. 

Miss your face and your jokes. 

Anyway, take care. 

Catherine ~~

END ~








   
  

..::.. A word ..::..

Sometimes, YOU just have to open your mouth and start asking a question in specific,

And there's you may know everything ...

Is everything .... with the matters that you prefer don't want to hear. 

But.. I heard it.

And.. sometimes, is better don't care for someone too over.

You just thought that the SOMEONE do everything for YOU.

BUT .. actually, HE/SHE is not ! 

I had stop being so silly and so stupid.

Just don't care what you wanna do.

Is better to devote my minds in my studies. 

   

...::.. 18/9/10 ...::..

Yeah... is my 17th birthday.

Finally reached it.

Thanks for my friends who message me during 0000 .

Thank YOU all. 

Went to tuition at 8am,

Said already my eyes could be GOLD FISH every Saturday.

And... this morning, 

Michelle asked for my eyes again. 

" Xin Yan, what happen to your eyes? "

I saw a big present which wrapped with a brownish paper plastic. 

And I knew is mine. 

Straightly went through there and said " I take aaa... "

Everyone was laughing at me. 

I knew that I was too "perasaan ".

Is this. 

Thanks, Merissa, Kok Kuan and Kar Yee. 

Tadaa...

They went to my house after tuition. 

Xin Yan, Carmen Heng and Lim, Jeat Yinn, Merissa, Kit Teng, Sweet Yee, Catherine , 

Hui Jing. 

And my dad packed a superb combo combo combo set + extra extra wedges.

HahaXx.

They went my study room and started to play computer.

I wonder they came here to visit my house or celebrate with me huh?

Forced them to have their lunch downstairs .

The Miss.Catherine ... keep facing in front of facebook.

She addicted with her game. 

HER childish game.

Is sweet yee.

And i washed for all the plates and cups. 

Thanks Carmen Heng for helping me to place back all the cups.

Thanks Catherine for helping me to washed the cups without using any detergents.

Thanks Carmen Lim for helping me to clean the table.

Hahaxxx.

THEY blocked me and Carmen Heng when we were in kitchen. 

Oh my...

Sorry Carmen, accidentally blocked you.

Hhaxx.

And she barked with the dog behind my house because nothing to do.

And she even on the stove , MAN ....

Merissa went back after then. 

3pm something. 

Im glad that you came my house today. 

^v^

I opened the door outside for her. 

And at the same time I wanna went back ,

they locked me outside.

The hot whether made me feel uncomfortable. 

They keep finding the matches...

But they cant find, and Catherine used stove.

Smart Gal. 

They wanna used stone to produce fire at first.

Hahax.

Finally, i really get SHOCKED from them . 

They started to sing Birthday song with cake for me. 

Thanks, DUDES.

Called Jia Xin and she came after that.

Thanks , Jia Xin.

YOU let us enjoyed fully.

We even played hide and seek. 

Haha.

End of this day.

Thanks all my friends.

Thanks for coming and thanks everything you guys did for ME.

Get touched with IT.

END~





   



  

..::.. 1,2,3,4 ..::..

give me more loving than I've ever had.

make it all better when i'm feeling sad. 

tell me that i'm special even when I know i'm not.

 

make me feel good when I hurt so bad. 

barely getting mad,

I'm so glad I found you.

I love being around you. 

you make it easy, 

as easy as 1 2 3 4.
 

there's only 1 thing 2 do three words for you.

I love you.

theres only 1 way 2 say those 3 words 

and that's what i'll do.

I love you.
 

give me more loving from the very start.

piece me back together when I fall apart. 

tell me things you never even tell your closest friends. 

make me feel good when I hurt so bad. 

best that I've had. 

I'm so glad that I found you.

I love being around you. 

you make it easy as easy as 1 2 3 4.
 

there's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you.

I love you.

there's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words 

and that's what i'll do.

I love you.
 

I love you 

I love you. 

one two three four I love you.