Xin Yan

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2012-01-25T01:19:00.000-08:00

Woops. Miracle aha. :) Happy Chinese New Year everyone.

Mood was swung yesterday but now fine. Thanks, my friends.I'm glad there's still have you guys when I faced some so-called problems. Suraj, I had been scolded by him but in other way he woke me up. Aha, thanks boy. Don't ever try to compare between girls and boys, males and females. A boy would be tired in one day after he took the initiative to own that girl for a time. Same mind and thinking do boys have from what as a girl's thought. A girl may think that the guy didn't love her much BUT BOY may have the same thinking too. So as what the result is, girls don't always wait for the boy. That's all. And you know I WON'T and i dare not to start the first step even sending out a text and he call me LOSER. yea, loser suit me for a long time. In fact, I should take the first step start from here. Imma quite feeling uncomfortable and not used to surrounding when I didn't receive your text. I always love see there's numbers or even just a number from the message sign of my fb homepage, and I knew that was always you as you are the one who left me a lot of quotes there. And some even touched me but I never tell you and even reply you. You don't know I always waiting for my phone to vibrate when the clock strike at 10pm as I finished my work at that time. I feel warmth and a smile from my face when you text me everyday. I always complain whether you really serious or just joking, you tell me you were serious. I'm sorry if I made anything that really hurt you.

So... Should I take the first step? or waiting ..?

..::.. 2 8 7 ..::..

2011-09-19T03:29:00.000-07:00

Feeling kinda hard to balance back my mood right now. what the hell happening to me ? so wanna bang the wall and end my life now. I just felt the stress. Am stress out with another thinggy but not college stuff. Somehow, just dont know why i couldnt choose to give up that way instead of fearing for those stress and emotional stuff. I always look for a better tomorrow but it seems like very hard to achieve. I blame myself. Im the one not playing my role well or they just not attaching their importance to me. I WANT TO BREATH. get a life, LING XIN YAN! wake up wake up! what is the real happiness meant to you? I couldnt figure it out. Do the things YOU like and dont get influence by others. Be more unrestrained that people always ask you to do ! In fact, those motivation quotes were just a joke ! how many times i told myself just to forget it and let it passed but it seems like not. You just dont know how i feel when i received the message and it swung my mood as well. what the heck. Be the real me, and WHO AM I ?that's the question. Im tired and very very very exhausted. I just thought everything will better after a relaxing mind by eating or bathing. AND NOW, im NOT. Can i get back the something that worth to what I contribute for quite a time please. FED UP. The only way i can do right now is sleeping i guess. I knew thats kind of escaping but I got no choice what to do. Forgive me.

2011-09-05T19:34:00.000-07:00

Sorry to say that I always make myself try to forget eveything that I really dont wanna think of it.

I knew it was kind of escaping, but what to do?

Was trying so hard to face it, to face the problem but nonetheless failed.

Forgive me being so TIMID. wth ...

..::.. 2 8 5 ..::..

2011-08-25T19:45:00.000-07:00

Am going to end my first semester and the very last exam at 4.30pm later. :)

Can't wait for it !

Stay tuned. Blog will be updated very soon.

Cheers.

Good luck for group E members and so DQS1.

...::.. 2 8 4 ...::..

2011-07-16T23:54:00.000-07:00

Is JULY.

Time flies.

In summary as well,

The most unforgettable Father's day i had and They had too.

I was admitted to hospital and an operation was done during that night.

Imma already suffering from the fever and gastric CRAMP for 6 days which brought about 1 week plus.

That was horrible.

Went to clinic for three time.

And finally,doctor asked me to have a check up in hospital.

I got appendicitis.

Thanks to all my friends, classmates and colleague.

I appreaciate the wishes a lot.

Yea, seriously. I mad with the assigments, sketches drawing and the mid-term examination.

Almost nil about it.

Building construction's result was not satisfied. I failed myself thou it pass.

I told myself everything consider fine IF PASS since I studied the subject last minute.

And how come EMO came to me ?

agreed with what Mun Yee said, everyone will compare their results.

Can I stop comparing with others?

I used to smile, used to forget everything and continue to work hard during SPM life.

But now, I feeling wanna die !

There's only 25 objectives question and some of it was just answering either true or false.

The more easier the questions, the more stressful I felt.

THERES ONLY 25 OBJECTIVES QUESTION AND I NEVER SLEPT FOR 2 DAYS.

WHAT FOR ...?

Feeling so wanna give up for this subject.

And yea, I knew that this is only the beginning,

people around keep telling me that, QS quite hard to study, the most difficult subject to study, School of Technology is difficult and bla bla bla.

I knew ! and what for you telling me this ?

I selected the course and I knew I couldn't escape from it.

Thank you for telling me that dont try to escape.

Well, just wanna know your opinion that

will you feel annoying and feeling want to slap the people

where the people keep asking what is your marks and what your friend's marks?

and trying to show off ! OH MY GOD !

what the hell.

DON'T YOU FEEL YOURSELF ARE ANNOYING ? !

stop complaining others before you get into yourself please !

went to a so-called student's birthday celebration. :)

and.. guess what ?

I was missing. I dont even know how to back since it was night when wanna meet with my friends after the party.

GOD. am so nervous by that time.

Days are getting harder for me.

Tension lahhh....

college stuff, tuition stuff, examination, role play, presentation and so on.

Epic.

2011-06-23T06:15:00.003-07:00

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..::.. 2 8 3 ...::..

2011-06-11T01:33:00.000-07:00

Sorry, Im back. :)

Was busying with assignments and college stuffs recently.

Theres a small test next thursday. :(

Erm yea, whats going on with me within a month?

Went to taiwan, and it was a great trip for me.

Was preparing to attend mass call after that and my kinda busy life started.

Received the cheque form Nuffnang.

Thanks, Nuffnang.

I met my new friends two weeks later.

And yea, all assignments came to us.

Busying prepare for presentation and so-called courseworks.

Dad bought me a laptop,

ASUS A43S series.

I dyed my hair with sweet pink.

Aha, dont get shocked,

is reddish but kinda brownish.

11-6-2011

Met with them after my tuition class ended.

Carmen Heng, Carmen Lim, Catherine, Sweet Yee,Jeat Yinn, Weng Zhen and Kheng Fai.

Headed to Kay's Garden @ DPC.

Muahahahaha, Catherine came to center and I was so shocked.

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2011-04-09T21:57:00.000-07:00

11 - 4 - 2011

Wanna to clarify something seriously.

Our status are different,

the way we think,

we love, we like and even dislike are totally Different.

And so...

There's no point hanging out with people who don't make you feel good.

Be with people who appreciate your presence.

Damn. These are what happen when you step into this kinda mature year,

step into the real society.

And ... you know what is the real meaning for EVIL.

Some people even wearing a " mask " front of you.

I used to be alone.

They always believed, " I create my life. "

But I believe life happens to me.

They play the money game to win.

I play the money game to not lose.

They focus on opportunities but I focus on obstacles.

They are willing to promote themselves and their value,

I love to think negatively about selling and promotion.

They choose both, I choose either and or.

I wish removing certain people from my life was as easy as unfollowing them.

Please worry about your character, not your reputation.

Because your character is who you are,

but your reputation is what people think you are.

② ⑧ ①

2011-04-09T21:54:00.000-07:00

9 - 4 - 2011

Aha, badminton today again.

Feeling damn different today,

I loved. =)

Never rest even for a second.

GOSH,

feeling my skill got some improvement.

*perasaan* XD

Went to Green Mamak stall we usually eat.

Mee soup, mee goreng, teh O-ice limau,

teh ice, Milo Beng. XD

These were what we called.

Buzz-ed there for at least 2 hours.

I love to have the moment like that.

Every moment, every laughter we did.

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2011-04-09T21:33:00.000-07:00

8-4-2011

Time flies.

Is April now.

Gonna start my college life soon.

Mass call on 3rd May.

Went the Curve with the GIRLS.

Went for the movie call The Ghost Must Be Crazy.

Glad to say that Im 18. XD

② ⑦ ⑨

2011-04-06T00:31:00.000-07:00

EMO ....

GET OUT FROM MY LIFE !

DAMN !

senseless whole day.

Its really exhausted .

How should I control my emotion ?

YOU are who YOU ARE when no one was looking..

② ⑦ ⑧

2011-04-05T07:54:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating the blog for a month.

Everything goes smoothly so far.

Got my SPM result, registering for the coarse that I wanted.

Waiting for the offer letter next week and so gonna to start my NEW LIFE.

Got the payment from Nuffnang. =)

Thanks, Nuff.

4-4-2011

Drove alone to Carmen's house,

and guess what ?

Crushed into a MANGO tree beside carmen's house.

At first, we thought the car doesn't go awry all the way,

because is just a slightly bang .

But then, when both of us had a look at the car,

We were O.O , got shocked.

So unlucky.

Heading to Taiwan for another 18days more.

New Life, New Mind .

One more time, One more Chance.

2 7 7 th

2011-03-21T07:02:00.000-07:00

Yea, there's another two more days where I really never put any hope on that bloody day.

And yet, the feeling is just like what Carmen said to me,

" feeling like butterfly is flying in the stomach . "

Oh my....

Well, today was my third teaching lesson at M&S Learning Center.

Everything goes smoothly so far.

And yeah, I learnt something.

Teaching is different from studying.

Teaching will let everything goes into your mind,

I should done that before SPM.

And tomorrow, Im gonna drive alone and fetch my friends here and there.

No raining , please.

Damn, I did something wrong.

I locked the main gate of the center,

Ms.Ng called me but I failed to answer her phone.

Feeling so guilty, please phone back me, please...

Gossip again after the classes.

We chat lot of things, bout the way you argue with your friends, any friends.

And now I only realize, I never have a wrangle or quarrel with Wong Catherine.

Aha...

Something made me annoying !

SOMEONE deleted my thousand of messages.

DAMN !

Epic.

* Facebook is where you lie to your friends. Twitter is where you're honest with complete strangers.

This is so true.

②⑦⑥ th

2011-02-17T07:16:00.000-08:00

First of all,

I passed my driving test. =)

Hopefully will get it tomorrow.

Thanks to all who wished me, appreciate a lot.

I ❤ today. =)

Hang out with Jia Xin, Carmen and Catherine.

That's not a waste feeling excited for it.

Everything went well.

Thanks all.

Went for bowling and had a movie.

" Who Know's Woman? "

Guess who is she ???
Ms. Wong Catherine. XD

I miss this. :(

Jia Xin.

Xin Yan.

The Balls.

Merissa was scolding Catherine .

Her uniform.

Four of us.

Glad that we were in Catherine's frame.

Cat's bed.

Lazy bumps.

Drawing.

Cat threw her BIOLOGY BOOKS into dustbin .

Thanks, MERISSA.
LOVE it . XD

Next will be a short post entitled The Person who I admire.

②⑦⑤ th.

2011-02-09T02:01:00.000-08:00

My CNY .

Kay, there's no difference for this year.

Done my third driving lesson today.

Everything induced to fine.

I met Wen Ting there. =)

Failed to recognize her at first

I thought the girl was Malay . =X

And once I turned my head at her when she was parking her car,

she smiled at me.

O.O

Owhh, Is HER .

Gheee......

Raymond called me this afternoon,

asked me whether free this Friday .

Gotta " Lau Shang " with them. =)

Chat with Carmen yesterday.

She asked me once again,

which coarse am I taking.

And I stunt suddenly,

Feeling like not interested in studying now.

Prefer working than it.
How a? Am so confusing !

Maybe never study quite a long time,

and thus senseless to it.

And yet...

How if 2 of them really heading to their NS in May at the same time ?

No one gonna lend me their's ears to listen my problems.

How many times do we forgive someone just because we don't want to lose them,

even though they don't deserve our forgiven.

...::.. First - ty ..::..

2011-02-07T06:55:00.000-08:00

Teehee ,

Completed the task of the week before Chinese New Year 2011 .

Did it and feeling quite fun actually for my first part-time job.

Met new friends from my booth and of cause from non co-workers too. =)

GOLDEN RECIPE @ 1 Utama.

and is named as 金爷爷 in Mandarin.

And yea, I get bored from the beginning of the days .

The most of the reason was

not yet familiar with the surrounding and know each other well.

But lastly, we got it.

Im just loved to the job and my friends over there. =)

We cared for each other , and 1 word to described.

We are UNITED.

Im glad that I have FRIENDS like them .

Merissa & Kok Kuan.

They find me when having their breaktime thou never bought the biscuits from me.

But is Okay. Heee.

And yea, thanks for Meri that asking me whether wanna to replace her job at IN Q-

BOX.

Thanks Kok Kuan for fetching me to MsNg center last week.

Thanks Catherine , for AT LEAST called me when she passed by the event hall as she

is known as a busy woman.

Xin Yu =) A girl with perfect skill.

Me and Raymond.
@ HUMOUR and FUNNY.
@ He made us laugh all the time.

Me and Qing Tao.
@ Handsome guy as you can see.

@ Funny jokers and he is quite 8 actually.

Ah Niang and Qing Tao.
@ Cashier
@ look alike Lam Fong

Hamper. =)
@ CARMEN HENG !!
CAN U C ???
THE HAMPER ON YOUR TABLE
IS ALIKE WITH MINE.

COOKIES ... AWWW :)

Serving customers.

Alan with us.
@ Boss

Feeling that this was only the beginning stepped into the social,

and contact with differenct levels of the people around.
Guess what ?

I just LOVEEE the pair of the parents,

They purposely came to find me and my sista the next two days as they promised.

They were so funny , and can be make fun with.

They planned to buy the only 1 jar from my stall at first,

but I kept " pushing " them to buy 4 jars which mean 1 set.

And finally, THEY bought 2 sets from me.

And ahahaha, they bought another set of handmade cookies from me again the next

two days.

I LOVE the pair of the parents.

We seems like friend than a relationship between a sales and customers,

How cool that we chat for 30minutes ... XD

Something suprising..

CHIOK QING TAO ...

was selected as an extra performer in TV3 due to the celebration of Chinese New

Year.

How lucky is HIM.

He received RM 50 from the administartor from TV3 ,

Awww... : )

And yet, He belanja us . XD So kind.

Me and Ah Niang.

I learnt something,

The community has different of personalities, some even with a mask .

..::.. 20.1.10 ...::..

2011-01-20T05:39:00.000-08:00

Freaking Tired today.

Am so so so so so nervous !

Started my driving lesson at 1pm

end at 4pm.

Whole situation was like debacle.

Mad for it.

I knew how to drive, i knew the fact,

but my response was like SHIT.

I just failed from treading the clutch and accelerator at the same time.

How noob I am .

Learned around Manjalara Park,

and guess what ?

He asked to drive on those road where many cars passed by later.

OMG...

Nervous plus nervous !

Never been so nervous like HELL before.

This was really make my HEART keep thudding with .... EXCITEMENT ?

This was HORROR !!!

Heart wanna pumping out from my body.

And I was always lined on the first row before the traffic light turn RED.

DAMN .. this is my fate.

Hmm... i think i did mati enjin for about 4-5 times .

Haihhhhhh...

Never get prepared myself on ROAD.

And... and... and...

Guess what ??

I drove back to my home , SERIOUSLY.

My steering not yet get ready.

The drivers around keep making the way for me,

And I don't know should feel proud or what ... ?!!

Keep feeling so Paiseh and drove as fast as I can.

But the Kancil's speed still like that. >.<

Almost BANG with the car behind me,

cause failed to hold back the clutch properly.

But the driverssssssssss.... never HORN me.

Make me more nervous.

Having my driving test on 16-2-11 .

Fail for sure. Aaaaaxxxx.

* The uncle saw me using left hand writing on his paper.

And he asked " you left-handed a ? "

" No wonder your steering so ODDLY ! "

OH... shit....

" You should practice more for clutching and steering. "

" YOU ARE TOO NERVOUS, Dont need to hold the steering so tight. Relax. "

These are the advices from him before I left.

OMG ... OH MY GODDDDDDD !!!!!!!!!!!!!

I bet the uncle is scolding me right now,

I think he already had a hard-hearted .

And... i knew he already TAHAN-ed me for 3 hours.

* Pray hard *

..::.. Aha ...::..

2011-01-19T00:18:00.000-08:00

I got my first part time job in One Utama.
Feeling so excited for next Monday.
Selling biscuits . =)
RM70 per day plus commision .
Teehee.. XD

Tomorrow... my first driving lesson.
Am so nervous .... Aaaaaaaa.
Hopefully no BANG for me.

* Pray Hard. *

If I were the Green Hornet

2011-01-14T01:27:00.000-08:00

If I were a Green Hornet,

I would like to design a giant and auto technology Moving Castle as my dwelling place

It is something like Transformers

which can be turned into two, three and even four-wheels vehicles.

Teehee..

And thus I may fight against those criminals.

Magic skills... ...like magic claws and even magic bolts.

I could probably train myself to become a magician.

Something like Harry Potter and the magic words ...

Like ... erm ...

" Alohomora " ...

used to open and unlock doors, but doors can be bewitched so that this spell has no effect and so the criminals can be caught.

For your information, the word - "Alohomora" was stated from the West African Sidiki dialect used in geomancy and has the literal meaning " Friendly to thieves ".

Apart from that, to become a Green Hornet,

Vegetables should be consumed everyday ... Why ?

vegetables are GREEN ... teehee XD

Green Hornet is a human being in fact, and thus I need to maintain a healthy lifestyle and of course a balanced diet is important for me to keep my body fit and fiddle.

So... how vege are important for me besides from potions.

Vegetables provide various of vitamins, minerals and thousands of other plant chemicals, and this is known to provide health benefits.

Hence, I could increase my vitality due to high nutrient contents.

And so, I could probably caught a criminal at a lightning speed.

Ooyah..Safety features...

In the green light of this, I would like to make myself learn some self-defense training.

Kung Fu

Wushu

Silat

Karate

Weng Chun XD

The Ends.

..::.. 8.1.11 ..::..

2011-01-09T07:25:00.000-08:00

8.1.11

Saturday .

Feeling so nervous for undang test.

Reached center at 7am,

Followed by Carmen after that.

Undang center and I got number 022 ,

Carmen 036 .

Met Catherine and Pearly which had been expected.

Guess what number they got.

100 and 101 .

The moment when the operator called my name ,

" Ling Xin Yan "

my heart was thudding with excitement.

I was very nervous and in a state of tension.

I got number 12 for my seat.

Forgot to put back my phone into the rack.

Careless me.

And finally, I passed....

* a big phewwwwwwwwwwwww *

48/50 .

Carmen got 49/50 .

Decided to skip Amali and straight to begin my first driving lesson .

Sunday looks.

..::..7.1.11 ..::..

2011-01-09T07:20:00.000-08:00

Is FRIDAY. =)

Went to badminton with Carmen, Sweet Yee, Michelle, Ms.Ng and her friend from Japan - Wayne.

Everything induced to fine.

Met Joel after that.

Aaahaha ...

Had a poke fun at school .

Have a lie on them ...

that I got my P license.

Muahahahahahah.

But anyway,

I was very happy when met up with them,

maybe we are from the same kinds of personality ,

easy to make fun with , and crazy enough.

Went to have our lunch - Pan Mee with ...

Walaoeh Gang.

I was shocked when I saw my drawing board

was placed first vertically along the roadside when step into school.

Thou it really not nice .

No ruler is using .

..::.. 4.1.10 ...::..

2011-01-05T08:01:00.000-08:00

Yesh.. baebe,

Work hard and get prepared for the Undang test this Saturday.

Pray hard.

*hand-crossed *

Please do allow me to wrong 8 at most.

Guess what ?

Received Yinn's message at evening.

" Xin Yan. "

So hard to draw out whats my feeling,

but Im very happy in fact she's still greet at me.

Shes still remembered me in other saying. =)

And yet, chat with carmen lim via Facebook.

She express her feeling to me,

and sure I felt sad to her

Im so sorry that I failed to help her anyway.

Haihhh...

Yinn onlined after 11pm.

She asked me some questions for Biology and Physics.

Sincerely a sorry if my answers are wrong. =X

And yea, we chat a lot.

Guess what ?

Both of us ended up our chatting at 1.30am. XD

Woohoo... is a new record for ME.

She is hardworking but TOO HARDWORKING !

what I wanna trying to say is...

RELAX... is just the beginning.

And she still wanna do her revision after 1.30am.

And I was like O.O . , Huhh ??

can you imagine what will she do if the next day is her SPM ?

I bet she wont sleep whole day .

Whole month , i think.

This is too hardworking,

make the modest remarks on herself.

She always look down upon herself ,

but can you see ???

SHE DID IT !! SHE DID IT FINALLY.

PROUD OF HER !

Yesh... achived the earning FINALLY. [ Nuffnang ]

2011-01-03T23:21:00.001-08:00

...:::..2.1.10 ...:::...

2011-01-02T07:13:00.000-08:00

Depressing.
Feeling like wanna tears out.

Wondering nothing but mind was in a state of confusion.

People and friends around me

are going to prepare themselves on their studies,

and some of them found their jobs too.

My life just senseless.

I really MISS MY HIGH SCHOOL LIFE SERIOUSLY.

Im REALLY.

I wish to went back.

Because all of them !

Yea,

agree what you said.

shoudn't be so closed to you guys ,

see how much deepen of my feeling !

Sad ... I should knew them earlier .

..::..What I never did is Done. ..:::..

2010-12-24T06:21:00.000-08:00

For your every action,

and what did you promised to me.

The only word I can express, Despair.

You did the same thing once and again.

You never thought of what I want and of cause my feelings.

I always told my mind to forget everything.

And...

I learn to use NEVERMIND in every sentence ,

as well as what you did to me for these days.

I wanna have a better attitude in fact.

So, do I ?

Tried to don't mind everything,

But I wonder

Will my multi-to-less attitude be last longer ?

How if I really can't endure ?

I wish to be more unrestrained,

I wish Im a straightforward person.

I used to express my feelings via blogging instead of telling you the
truth.

Sigh...

Who would have thought forever could be served by

The sharp knife of a short life, well

I've had , just enough time.

What I never did is Done.

From now on,

I will expect nothing

And just considere what I get .

I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. =)

And ...

Be who you are and say what you feel .

SMILE. ^ ____ ^

..::.. ♥ .::..

2010-12-23T03:49:00.000-08:00

...::.. Life from Now onwards...::...

2010-12-22T06:36:00.000-08:00

Hey babae , Im here again . =)

Sorry for using babae, this will be my next favourite quote.

Kinda short post here.

My life sucks from now onwards.

Thinking what should I do for the next day all the way.

Is senseless... The time was damn spacious for me.

Im proud to say that I had finished my CANON.

but still not in a perfect condition.

Bought Liese today finally, and is Sweet Pink .

Is not really pink .... Sorry for pink dislikers .

Expected what colour will formed on my hair.

Suddenly feel that my future was disrupt .

Flate of darkness front of me.

Couldn't choose and analyse properly.

No one was advised me.

I miss HER, HIM and THEM.

I really miss all of them !

I just couldn't forget all of those memoriessssss ...

Lifeless without Friends.

No one was supporting besides me.

No one was chatting with me.

No one was making me laugh and even smile from my deeply heart.

No one was scolding me not to think too much as they will comfort me once a week.

No one was sharing their stories with me.

No one was willing to share my burden away.

Yea... there's no one besides from FRIENDS.

Wanna call and even SMS them ,

but Im fear from disturbing them.

As one of them gonna start her study on January,

One of them gonna leave us for National Service on January.

One of them gonna work from now.

One of them still travelling around.

One of them still planning of her tertiary studies.

Sigh with emotion...

Sigh with feeling...

Sigh for elapse of the TIME.

No more circle in my life ?

Good luck for all PMR candidates .

Wish you all the best.

And please have a SMILE on your face no matter it is good or bad.

There's no use looking back of wondering.

Look forward, Baebe.

..::.. After SPM..::..

2010-12-14T02:47:00.000-08:00

Yeah Baebe, SPM was finally GONE.

I can feel the fresh air around.

Yesh.

And yet, I wanna achieve these desires from NOW.

★ 1.) I want to be independent. ★

▷ I want to earn money by myself. Dont wanna get any allowance from parents. ◁

☆ 2.) I want to dye my hair. ☆

▶ Liese is the first to introduce the latest hair styling product from Japan Hair Trends. Glossy Brown. ◀

★ 3.) Get my license . ★

▷ Yea, i wanna get my license as fast as possible. And so, i can fetch all of my friends here and there. No more reason for transport problem, please. ◁

☆ 4.) Canon with piano version. ☆

▶ Promised myself to play whole and complete Canon before the end of this year. ◀

★ 5.) Handmade Christmas's gifts ★

▷ And yea.. I plan to make Christmas's gifts to " Walaoeh 's " gang. ◁

☆ 6.) Mask ☆

▶ Do a mask at least once a week. No more excuses . ◀

★ 7.) Buy a new cell phone ★

▷ Wanna buy a new handphone with my own $$ . Wanna get a part-time job from now. ◁

☆ 8.) Watch movie with FRIENDS. ☆

▶ Argh... I had watched the only two movies in this year. Pity me. ◀

★ 9.) Party ★

▷ Ms. Ng threw her words to us that We gonna have a Steamboat party in her center. Im waiting... ◁

☆ 10.) I want to learn about WINE. ☆

▶ You just don't know My way of savouring wine is just like forcing to swallow the pills. ◀

Failed to endure the bitterness of the wine.

Damn.

Well...

..::.. List of 2010 ..::..

2010-12-08T19:36:00.000-08:00

JANUARY 2010

8.1.10 Contact lens shift from my eye and It is still finally found in my socket. Whole gang of friends laugh at it.

12.1.10 Catherine bought us each Bear key-chain. Everyone got the different colour and I got pink+purple.

15.1.10 Silly Moral Period. We fear of Pn.Thillai, Catherine and me thought ourselves never bring her exercise book and quickly drop down on a new GAPAN book. Found it at last in our bags.

21.1.10 Carmen said Catherine looks like a BALL.

FEBRUARY 2010

6.2.10 I knew is Jeat Yinn birthday, but Im still don't know her well.

10.2.10 Severe Gastric Pain. Thanks Yeow Xin gave me some sweets.
14.2.10 Valentine's Day and were in ULU YAM as it was the first day of Chinese New Year.

MARCH 2010

3.3.10 I have a slighly beat on a stanger when lined up for the attendance for PBSM because I thought she was Pearly.

7.3.10 Carmen Heng's birthday . I gave her a pair of cartoon shoes.

9.3.10 @ Ms.Ng send us the replacement class during holiday and started with to my disobedient, talkactive, hyperactive, lovely and cute students. She end up her letter by REGARDS, PRETTY NG.

            @ Made a 3D flowers on a paper. *applause*
12.3.10 Gastric Pain again. Thanks Yeow Xin and Kar Yan.

20.3.10 BBQ at Ms.Ng house.
29.3.10 Revised for History, got a disease after that. I cant see my mouth when I concentrate on my eyes. And , I can't see my eye when I see my mouth.

APRIL 2010

2.4.10 Carmen, Catherine and Me asked each other what time slept the day before History. Funny answer from Catherine.

6.4.10 I-CITY

12.4.10 MC-FLURRY

18.4.10 Ms.Ng passed us fold of PHYSICS exercise . Break record. Almost 100++ pages of papers which only include of Form 4 Chapter 2- Force and Motion. To be passed up by the next month of it.

21.4.10 A deeply sadden Day.
28.4.10 甜蜜心烦，愉悦困扰

29.4.10 Drew an ugly picture of a girl cartoon during SEMINAR in hall.

30.4.10 The most AWKWARD DAY that I never had before. I fall into a canal in front of Kheng Fai and Weng Zhen. By the time, we still never knew each other well. Weird man....

MAY 2010

15.5.10 Hamster dead.
26.5.10 Yeow Xin's birthday.

JUNE 2010

12.6.10 Lovely AUNT's birthday. WE bought her something.
17.6.10 Food Hunt. We met up Lara Sim which came from Malacca.

JULY 2010

8.7.10 LC cube day. L stands for me, represent Ling. C cube represent Carmen, Catherine and Chung Kar Yee.

9.7.10 L square C cube day. Lee Merissa was added.

10.7.10 Self-reflection on myself.

14.7.10 An Ice-cream A day, Keep the moodiness away.

20.7.10    @Sweet Yee's birthday. Celebrated at The Happy Cafe.

                @ Aunt bought something for US from Japan.

                @ Mood were totally down. YOUR HEART CANN'T ACCEPT WITH    WHAT YOUR MOUTH AS SAYING.

24.7.10 Merissa's birthday. I gave her a Lipstick phone-chain at last.

27.7.10 First time play badminton with Jeat Yinn and Carmen Lim at the stuffy hall besides JUSCO.

31.7.10 Went for KEM-KEPIMPINAN.

AUGUST 2010

1.8.10 Back from camping. Something made me mad and sad of it. But happier things are more than that. Never regret to participate myself in these activities. @ Started to comprehend with each other, Carmen Lim and Jeat Yinn. =)
7.8.10 Hari Koko. Take part for painting on board. Guess what ? Me, Xue Ren and Carmen Heng got consolation prize as our product formed were not attractive enough

12.8.10 FEARLESS

13.8.10 THE MAXIMUM TEARS DROPPING from myself. The most hurtful day and sadness day
.
14.8.10 Hatred, anger are dangerous, lose yourself eventually if you can't control it. One of the way is FORGIVING.

20.8.10 Lunch with gangs of friends. Remark from Kar Yee " 喝汤啦！ ”

21.8.10 Celebration for Ms.Ng birthday but she need to stay in hospital.

26.8.10 Pusat Akses. Google search ANG JEAT YINN. found lots of her things. XD

27.8.10 Went to watch Phua Chu Kang with friends.

29.8.10 Fall in love with Shimino.
30.8.10 We drew on Catherine's trial exam timetable. It was colorful. And .... she still keeping with it in her bag smoothly until today. XD
31.8.10 Malacca Street

SEPTEMBER 2010

5.9.10 Feeling ENVY of some friends.

12.9.10 Italiannes. Bought a watch to May Kei as her birthday present.

18.9.10 My Birthday.
21.9.10 @ Catherine falled sick. What ... erm... 蚊症... what what what..   whatever..

             @ Cam-whored

23.9.10 @ May Kei's Birthday.

@ May Kei, Michelle and Me went to SAI GONG in Maluri.

OCTOBER 2010

6.10.10 Carmen Lim's Birthday. I gave her a self-made fail.

7.10.10 Michelle Wong's Birthday. I gave her 2 mini pot of nail colour. She painted on her nails in APD after school.

8.10.10 Emo...

12.10.10 PMR was over with Mandarin papers.

13.10.10 Have a fun in class. The bees ... and Carmen splash water on Catherine.

15.10.10 MAJLIS PERLANTIKAN PPS

16.10.10 Dorae.

18.10.10 JEAT YINN promise not to EMO anymore.
19.10.10 Ms.Ng left me some messages in my chatbox. T.T

29.10.10 PPS farewell party.
30.10.10 BBQ party for PPS.

NOVEMBER 2010

1.11.10 Pan Mee and Longanai with May Kei, Michelle, Sweet Yee, Carmen Heng, Carmen Lim, Jeat Yinn, Weng Zhen, Kheng Fai , Han Qin and Xue Wern. @ Remember my worse contonese "辣椒的板面”. Ring of the sound from them " 板面的辣椒”Aww... awkward.

3.11.10 TESCO with the same gang. XD

11.11.10 @ Xue Ren's Birthday

@ Received May Kei SPECIAL message. =)

12.11.10 Graduation day. @ Curry Mee which invited by May Kei. @ having Diarrhea.

15.11.10 Made Walaoeh Movie.

..::..

2010-12-06T06:51:00.000-08:00

Arghxxxx...

Feeling bored and senseless started from this evening.

I wonder why too...

My sister cut my fringe using a big and rusting scissors.

Im fear of she accidentally from shaving my eyelash.

Frame of mind were in downcast.

Totally never have mood to revise Biology.

Asking Carmen Heng for the reason.

Is laughable that asking the reason from her.

She keep typing... " cause... cause .. cause... "

" Your ooestrogen level were finished. "

I stunt a while and ignore that.

" cause.. cause... cause.. You feel very sad because you gonna end your high school life. "

And I replied , " There's no difference whether having high schooll life now, for me, already ended . "

Guess what ?

she speechless after that. XD

Keep " haih ~ing " in any conversation .

No matter what...

Love Canon.

Im gonna to learn and play whole song of Canon after SPM.

Recently Love to these SONGS.

..::.. Multi to Less ..::..

2010-12-03T21:19:00.000-08:00

Feeling lot of thought to be matured.

Should thanks someone who guiding me and be more open-minded.

I salute YOU !

suddenly feel what I act for you and done WERE naive before that.

But I did try to ignore that.

I knew and I try to behave my new maxim.

MULTI TO LESS ATTITUDE.

Perhaps my life could be more happier and easier.

What do we live for, if it is not to make life less difficult for each other?

Few friendships would survive if each one knew what his friend says of him behind his back. [ Turst Me. XD ]

So.. here's to...

the crap we talk

the guys we stalk

the way we shop

laugh's we can't stop

the gossip we spill

the looks that could kill

we'll stay together

Cause we are Best Friends Forever..

Miss ALL OF YOU .... T.T

=) XD CX ^^ ( = f2 ^V^

My Life. =)

...::.. Nothing Much ...::..

2010-12-02T03:15:00.000-08:00

Time yet passes greatly fast.

2 weeks were gone,

7 papers were down, and still climbing for another 3.

totally never have a proper rest.

done all revision but still can forgot everything in fact.

Praying hard seriously.

feeling like never put much of effort and even try my best on it.

Why ? Did I ?

I was born not to be sensible, wise, smart and

my brain couldn't work and think as what they can did.

Examination for me seems like a competition with time.

Im racing with time,

And I losed.

Im fear the coming March.

Those SENSATION came back to me yesterday.

Wonder why my heart keep thudding when lying on the bed during midnight.

And those mind-thinking came back .

Is a weird thinking seriously, but I wonder why too?

Suddenly feeling myself will die and lose myself for the next day.

And.. this is the second time.

And where are my soul ?

Does soul really appear on everyone's spirit ?

Im fear from losing myself seriously.

And yet... Gonna sleep as much as I can for today.

Please do not swing my mood away, please.

I still need to endure for another 2 more days.

Yes we are and I do like to pass the day with you in serious chatter.

I wouldn't mind washing up beside you, dusting beside you,

reading the back half of the paper while you read the front.

We are friends and I would miss you, do miss you and think of you very often.

I don't want to lose this happy space.

...::.. Leaving and BID farewell ...::..

2010-11-04T01:28:00.000-07:00

Wrting my blog by listening the song YOU GUYS sang for us.

" ZHU FU " by Jacky Cheung.

Perhaps is a touching post if you can press " play " of the video below

before reading the following posts.

Gonna cry of IT !

Is an awesome farewell party for us !

Thanks, dudes. =)

And I really appreciate it actually.

Don't cry ady.

Seniors and juniors. =)

Peace.

GIRLS

Kheng Fai and ME.

SHE MADE ME LOVE FOODS.

MFJ & MFS

YEAH

SHE SCARE LONELY.

ME AND SUNNY.

IS ME.

Girls.

SMILED. =)

TOUCHING PART.

fORM 5s

ME AND SAI LOU.

Gift from them.

Making STAR.

YEAH.

ME AND POH YEE.

with MFJs

DO. RE. MI

SHE PROMISE ME SHE WONT EMO . =)

ME AND LONGMAN.

ME AND XUE WERN.

ME AND YOKE MUN.

EDITED PICTURE.

PLEASE MAINTAIN YOUR SMILE.

We went TESCO yesterday.

A superb big gang of us.

Catherine, Carmen Heng, Carmen Lim, Jeat Yinn, Pearly, Poh Yee, Yoke Mun, Kheng
Fai, Weng Zhen, Lee Merissa , Kar Yee, Kok Khuan, May Kei.

Thanks GUYS !

After went out through the door,

My tears dropping voluntary.

Sorry , Carmen Heng.

made YOU cry too !

At bus stop, waiting mum to fetch me back.

I just hoped that SHE could forgot from fetching me.

And .. I just wanna the time stopped at that moment.

And please flashing back on those times if can.

Finally, she came.

Big gang of them stood at there,

shout GOODBYE at me.

Jeat Yinn even say " Don't Cry aa!!! "

Oh man.. i really can't endure with it !

I cant stop my tears from dropping.

Feeling damn regret that never knew you guys EARLIER .

=(

Please do remember ME.

And I will remember ALL OF YOU !

LOVE YOU ALL .

Thanks for making my life COLOURFULL .

Please do continue have your LONG NGAN NAI in your school life.

Remember us when enjoy it . =)))

REALLY MISS YOU GUYS A LOT AND A LOT !!!
I MISS ALL OF YOU SO MUCH !!!!

..::.. 19.10.10 ..::..

2010-10-19T01:55:00.000-07:00

I was suprised that Ms.Ng had left me SOME messages there.

Yea.. time passed really fast.

Im feeling full of regret .

I never done my best in everything for those moments.

Fine, there's no use crying over spilt milk.

Okay.

Once again sorry if I made you feel sad with it.

But I really wanna to share out.

Is about 6 more weeks with my lovely teacher

but 3 more weeks with my beloved FRIENDS.

In short, there were not much of time.

As Carmen said, " Not much time left ady.. Must make use of every moment ma !! "

She sent me this message last night as we were discussing going school or not.

I miss a lot of things in school.

I miss my greenie uniform once more.

I miss my white and broken shoes where I washed it once every week.

( Not like someone who washed HER shoes within 3 months )

I miss my PPS stuff.

PPS stuff. Sweet, Meri & Me.

I miss my TIE where I only washed it for 1 time in my life

and keep receiving a lot of complaint from my friends.

I miss when I can staying back after school till 4pm. XD

I miss when I always hang out with friends to eat in Maluri after school.

KOK HING, SAI GONG, PAN MEE, CURRY MEE, JAWA MEE, MAMAK STALL , LONG NGAN NAI, AIS KACANG , and even PISANG GORENG.

Cat's favourite. =)

Pan Mee ( BIG )

Thanks to May Kei who really brought us to try on those superb tasty lunch .

PAN MEE and LONG NGAN NAI.

There's belongs to our " LAO DI FANG "

XD XD XD

I miss when we play Maths Magic together.

I miss when we step on the yellow line when on the way back to school.

I miss the time when I could go to toilet.

I miss my nickname " TOILET QUEEN" where you guys gave me.

I miss when Kar Yee love follow and teman me to toilet

and maykei always stand in front outside our class to inform me that she are going to toilet.

And WE quickly took the PASS from teacher and rush to toilet.

HOW FUN IS IT!

I miss when YOU GUYS keep looking down on my Cantonese and laughing at me.

I knew it could be trouble but I really recorrect it. =)

I miss my nametag where it drop anywhere and anytime,

but still came back to me at last.

I miss when GROUP of us sitting at the corner of the class

and started to chat , gossip, play, scream, eat and many others action together.

I miss when we love to listen ghost story.

I miss when we love to slip away from the class without teacher's permission.

I miss when WE started to imagine a lot of things about our future and discuss together.

I miss when you guys pour water to each other like what you all did TODAY.

I miss when you guys love to scracth on Catherine's hairs.

( She changed her hairstyle today and her eyes looks bigger . XP )

I miss when we walked together to Ms.Ng center with the two kids.

I remembered when we refresh our mind to searching for a dog's appearance.

I miss when I love to shout at them and called them to cross over the road. XD

haha..

SOMEONE told me

SHE think of me when crossing the road

but no one is reminding her

whether crossing or not ,

because Im not beside her .

haha. LOVE THIS. See how much important I am.

XD

Feeling touch with it huh. T.T

I will always miss you, Ms.Ng.

Not me, but WE.

Sure we will always remembered you!

Im really shocked when you leave me those touching message.

WE won't forget YOU la. XD XD

I knew we were naughty, disobedient, lazy and always love to "oppose" you,

but I think we bought you great of happiness ?

at least..

I miss when you told us your story .

I miss when you spread the photostate papers to us ,

And i knew it couldn't be happen again next time? haha XD

I miss your homework althought i really did not did on it " SOMETIME "

Ooyah.. I also miss you when play badminton with us .

I miss when you belanja us to eat at " GEI DAK SEK "

I miss when you belanja us to drink at " TIN PAN GO GO "

I miss when you pack 8 packs of KFC to us.

I miss when we together go and sing-K together .

K-room

And you only knew to sing those old songs.

I miss when we have a gathering like BBQ at your house and of cause yours center.

Ms.Ng.

Perhaps we can have those moments next time

at your favourite place, TIMES SQUARE.

haha.

XD

We are so glad that knew you as our beloved tuition teacher.

Sorry if I done anything wrong to YOU.

Not yet end.

...::.. Is Food ..::..

2010-10-19T00:24:00.000-07:00

Went to PUDU food booth .

There's lot of FOODS .

Not bad actually.

=)

Red Bean.

Cassava soup.

"Qing Po Leong"

" YOU ZHA GUAI "

SATAY

Fried bean curd & sotong.

Porridge.

" CHEE CHEONG FUN "

Me. =)

End.

..::.. 17.10.10 ..::..

2010-10-16T20:52:00.000-07:00

~~17.10.10~~

Sorry if I really made you guys feel SAD with it.

went to tuition at 8am yesterday morning.

with my reddish and swollen GOLD FISH.

this time is real because I really injured and hurt my eyes.

Due to... personal problem.

But then, sorry Ms.Ng.

I wonder why you say sorry to me. =)

and... thanks my friend who never ask me why and let me calm down.

After tuition, thanks Kit Teng for extend yours greeting to me.

As Catherine saying.

Agree what she said actually.

Will be happy and threw away those kinda confusing personal thinggy

after entering Ms.Ng center's door .

because gonna meet yours friends . XD

OkaY..

Went to badminton after that.

Asked Carmen to let me feel tired and fatigued with it.

And she really did it, she made me run over the half court there .

TIRED~

Me and Kar Yee were asked to engage and belanja because we lose.

21 - 13

21 is them obviously .

Sorry Kar Yee... T.T

I engage Carmen Heng who choose an expensive drink , RM2.30.

she refused to buy a mineral water !

That's all for yesterday.

I miss my school life.

I miss my greenie uniform.

...::.. Daorae ..::..

2010-10-16T20:26:00.000-07:00

~~16.10.10~~

Went Daorae today as Dad's birthday.


=)

Finished .

..::.. 13.10.10..::..

2010-10-13T05:55:00.000-07:00

~~13.10.10~~

Deeply grieved me.

Attended tuition for Maths and English as this is the last week.

feeling sleepy all the days.

And i can't concentrate on what the teacher teaching,

my eyes were spinning around.

~~TODAY.~~

I wonder what happen to me.

The article from the newspaper TOLD me

to relieve from restriction, and relaxed.

I wanna to do it but I know I can't.

I got twice of frighten TODAY.

The first one...

As we were sitting in a group at the corner of the class,

Me, Catherine, Carmen, Kar Yee and Merissa.

And they were drawing even PAINTING on my newspaper.

I bought it for RM1 .

It seems like buying their happiness.

A blackish insect suddenly flew through Catherine's mouth,

And she used her hand to "catch" it quickly.

The blackish insect on my table now!

We thought it was only a FLY but it is LARGE in size.

I never saw a BIG FLY before.

We used our hand to wave it away but IT DOESN'T MOVE.

I observed it attentively,

and I asked them, is a bee ?

I retreat my chair with sudden.

They get in shock and run away from the table.

But... Merissa still sitting there and said,

That's not a Bee, but a FLY in fact !

Someone asked her for more confirmation.

She said is a BEE at last.

Guess what Carmen did?

she used my newspaper to cover the bee,

and she tried to flatten it.

But the bee flee away.

It came to Kar Yee shirt,

and her hair,

THE BEE FLIED TO ME after her !

My uniform and stick to my greenie skirt !

Nonetheless, whole class were staring at group of us,

even the teacher..

( but she never take action and seems like watching movie )

This is the first frighten.

Let's talk about second.

3 prefects went to my class,

I whispered to Carmen, " Will I be calling out ? "

And she said, " YOU don't 3 8 , do you done everything wrong ? "

But then,

the prefect look for Catherine.

She went out, and came to us with wicked smile,

" Both of you gotta teman me to Bilik Disiplin too . "

HAR ... ??? I thought i was just simply said.

And .. i keep thinking a lot of things.

Do them saw US running away from class?

Oh Man..

Pn.S called those prefects check for our bodies

and physical outside the discipline room!

She even called a prefect to bring our bags up to second floor.

Whole class were staring at us.

I were in a state of SHOCK.

A very FRIGHTEN shock .

My heart seems like gonna pumping out from my body.

And of cause, Carmen and Catherine called me to calm down.

I asked Pn.S for the reason,

she refused to tell us.

and keep calling the prefect to do a spot check on 3 of us !

and Carmen just scream in front of them ,

" We don't need to scare, JUST LET THEM CHECK. "

salute you!

And finally,

We only realize the whole storyline.

But you know something ?

Feeling damn angry with Pn. S,

no wonder why every student feeling hatred on her.

I have the same feeling from now.

She failed to get any information from us,

and just said " THANK YOU " without looking at us

in straightforward .

I thought she at least need to say a SORRY ?

but she didn't !

Oh My...

And we need to carry our bag and go back class without any excuse !

Damn!

..::.. 12.10.10 ..::..

2010-10-12T07:30:00.000-07:00

Just Leave me alone.

In a state of horrified moodiness.

I just can't imagine that I will be drag in your post.

Should I feel proud ?

Is ridiculous !

The things that shouldn't be.

Im trying to hold back and preserve back the older post,

instead of publishing out.

Just because of someone.

Do whatever you want !

..::.. Memories ...::..

2010-10-11T02:13:00.000-07:00

Is me and Ms. Pearly 's doggy, ROCKY .

ROCKY , how are you now ?

Did you ever been bullying by your owner ?

Ooyah... this is the video where my sister sang me a birthday song on 18.9.10.

GELI weyyy =X

..::.. Snooker ..::..

2010-10-11T02:04:00.000-07:00

Is Snooker's Day.

Perhaps we can go and have a day with snooker and bowling after SPM ?

Nope... I want after trial exam.

Is too far away if I need to wait for the end of SPM.

Snap Shot.
XD

End.